DAILY DEVOT IONAL 4
Jacqueline Tilford
Moses said to the Lord, ‘Please forgive the wrongs of these people…’ Then the LORD said, ‘I will forgive as you requested….’ - Numbers 14:19-20
PREPARING MY HEART FOR FORGIVENESS
Decades ago, the rejection of a family member shook me to my core. It was deeply disappointing and hurtful. The fallout was humiliating, requiring a long drive home alone through several states. I desperately needed God’s love to wash over me and cleanse me of the pain and hurt. Instead of words to pray, a profound image came to mind. Jesus’ arms were lovingly wrapped around both of us; our heads were bowed as we humbly encircled one another, soaking in the love that flowed and never ended. “Praying” the image daily prepared me for the moment I finally realized, the hurt was healed; no pain or ill will was felt. It was an incredibly joyous moment!
Forgiveness was cause for celebration in a second instance. When two women spent energy searching for me from state to state, they urgently wanted to apologize for their involvement in a racist event that occurred fifteen years earlier. Prayerfully, living in multi-cultural contexts and anti-racism training gave me insights for coping and maneuvering. I felt no malice in my mind; though it is likely that my body was “keeping the score.” Their humble apology was a delightful surprise for which I continue to be grateful, for their sake as well as mine.
I have also needed to repent and seek forgiveness. I need forgiveness from inaction when offended or witnessing an offense rather than choose to fight with the weapons God provides. When I sincerely asked forgiveness from friends for arrogantly and belligerently exuding an attitude of “calling offenders out” to be rebuked and shamed, rather than “calling them in” to God’s circle of love and healing, reconciliation happened and hearts healed, leading to a place where “All is known. All is forgiven.”
PRAYER:
Forgive us, God, for being quick to offend and be offended but slow to forgive and seek forgiveness. Help us to feel the urgency to heal and be healed that you feel. Amen.
QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION:
1. Who do I need to forgive today?
2. Is there someone I’ve harmed and need to ask their forgiveness?
3. What can I do to increase a culture of forgiveness that heals within the Church?